My Journey (^_~)

yikess~..

bloggers..flashback to my previous life..this morning, i finished all the chores too early..as early as 9 a.m..therefore, i didn't know what else can i do?..so, i grabbed a few of my family's photo albums and started to view all the good old days..seriously, it's kind of taking me back to moment the pictures were taken..

i really miss all the days where our family strived hard to go through all the hardships and sometimes i don't think i can be like my mom and dad..they are the toughest parent on earth i've ever known..they raised us very well and i really hope that i inherit all their traits..i really do..i wanna be what people always say.."LIKE FATHER, LIKE DAUGHTER or LIKE MOTHER, LIKE DAUGHTER"..

being raised in this family taught me how to appreciate everything we have and be nice to everyone around us even they treated us bad..mommy taught me how to accept god's fate and my dad taught me how to be strong in this world..and to fight for myself..i wanna make both of them proud of me..

hye bloggers..

alhamdulillah..i've been through my first interview today..it's actually an unexpected interview because i came there to be interviewed by other company but it turned out that i went to other company..i was encouraged by my lecturer to enter the room just to gain experience on the process of an interview..i practised every tip given by the speaker during my finishing school seminar..thank u a lot to them for spending their time to teach UiTM fresh graduate students regarding the interview session and the correct way to attend a job interview..

everything that happened this morning was unplanned..i met my MBWL before my interview and alhamdulillah also, our meeting went well without any fighting..we were in a calm condition and no more nonsense talk between us..syukur~..

i am very thankful to Allah for giving me the opportunity to live in this beautiful earth and for surrounding me with caring and lovely people..tomorrow night i will be back home to Johore to celebrate Aidiladha with my family..may this coming Aidiladha is filled with Allah's blessing..aminnn..

yaikss..

2 papers finished..another 2 papers will come soon..huhuu..hopefully Allah will guide me till the end..i received a message from my mom today, telling me that my neighbour was admitted to a hospital last night because of H1N1..i told my mom and ayah to always wear a mask because the neighbour house is next to ours..

yesterday exam paper was tough + not enough time to finish..huhuhu..today, i have to study for my next paper..Construction Economics IV..calculation + theories??..which one do u prefer??..i'll try my best..there are only about 1 week left to be here in Shah Alam..i'm thinking of working in JB..changing of plan because i don't wanna be here anymore..

currently listening to chinese songs from the drama 'WHY WHY LOVE' and 'DEVIL BESIDE YOU'..nice..i'm looking for my mood to study..hahaha..hearing these songs make me flashback to my memories at UiTM Perak..miss that place so much~..some people may say that we cannot live in our past..but to me, my past is my guidelines and the most important thing to be cherished because what i am now are an upgrade or sometimes downgrade and changes from the past..agree??..

all of my friends have started to look for jobs..me??..i want to finish my exam first and start looking for a job afterwards..=)..can't wait to contribute to my family..and keep my promise to people that i love so much..

its kind of funny to hear this one news..about a backstabber who finally get into trouble..i don't say that i'm happy to see she suffers but maybe it's what has been fated by God..KARMA it is~..so, stop messing with other people's life..stop gossiping others and pleaseeeee stop pretending and thinking that u are the most perfect human being on earth..

hye bloggers..

wow!..yesterday paper was 'da bomb'!!..haha..u know what i mean right?..can be categoriesed as difficult + suam2 kuku + adehhh haaiii~..huahuahua..2 hours were given to us to complete 4 questions..i sat quite at the front line..usually i'd loved to sit at the back but blurry eyes avoid me to do so..(makin rabun la npknye aku ni)..uwaaaa~..

after the exam, i went for lunch with my colleagues..we tried a new opening restaurant and it seemed that the food were delicious there..yummmyyy~..at 3.30 p.m., i went to see my lecturer for the next exam with my classmates..it was a sad moment back there when my lecturer gave us some advices regarding our class..(only about 1 week left for us to be together)..=(..

i'm grateful to Allah for clearing my mind from any bad impression even though sometimes i would suddenly hate someone..haha..i just hope the best for everybody and may Allah bless u all..it's better to forgive and forget than hoping for revenge..(aku ke ni??)..huahuahua..

today is going to be my revision day as usual because i've got my 2nd paper for measurement..i went to bed early last night due to my neck aching..i couldn't do anything so i just pulled my blanket and went to sleep..huhuhu..so, today, i have to cover what i missed last night..jia you3x tia!!..

hye bloggers..

what a day~..i went out early this morning at 8 a.m. to send my housemates to their class and also went to Menara to settle my application..it turned out that i had to apply at the end of this year..*sigh~..but never mind..i can use the gap to rest before i start working..huhuhu..

i don't feel good today..i don't know why and i don't even care..many things to be settled and many hearts to be taken care of..*sigh~..i hope i have the strength and courage to stand on what i believe until i really am on the verge of greatness..hahaha..insyaAllah..

back to what i've been doing today..when i was at menara, i met kak wani who was my senior during my pre-science at UiTM Kuala Pilah..she was also one of my housemates..it's good to know that she is currently furthering her master here in UiTM Shah Alam..that makes me even determine to further my studies..=)..insyaAllah with God's will, i will try my best to make my parents and my family proud of me..

this is my final sem..my punching line to determine where i belong after this..hmm..i'm really nervous..only God can help me with this..better prepare myself with all the unexpected things and brace myself with what i got..=)

hye bloggers..

looks like my final exam is just around the corner..yaaikkkss~..i haven't prepare anything yet..i'm busy finishing all the assignments and figuring things out which i don't even know what that things are?..haha..

hmm..from this moment onwards, i've decided to spend my time with my friends only because we don't have much time to be together afterwards..everybody will start their journey into working life..i'm hoping that i can further my master by the end of this year and hopefully, my application to become a tutor will be granted so that i don't have to apply for other scholarship for my master..it's getting harder and harder, tougher and tougher each day as i have to live independently after this..

no more pocket money from my family..i'll be on my own..surviving in this world..huhuhu..i don't wanna think too much to what i've been facing now because it will only distract me from my goal. "Dear God, please guide me on the right track..please don't let me hurt anybody..please make everything easier for me..please show me what's good and bad for me so that i don't make a wrong decision..please bless everyone that i love..especially my family and my close friends..aminnn~"

continued from the previous post....

mommy and ayah took care of us very well..mommy woke up every hour to see my bro because his temperature seems to get higher especially at night..we were so worried but bro still can joke about it..aiiyaarrkk!!..

at last, the two of us were in a stable condition..i supposed to go back to shah alam this sunday but i don't wanna be a burden to my parents..i thought it would be better if i came back here with my bro..plus, my bro had to go to carey island to finish his work..cian my bro..letih dia jage adik dia yg sorg ni..huhu..thanks mommy, ayah n bro...jasamu akn dibalas nti..insyaAllah..

we left home at 5 a.m...juz to make sure that my bro can go to work on time..i was ok with that because i was still on a leave..such a quite and peaceful journey we've been through this morning..we sang many songs and i enjoyed watching the morning view at the highway..

finally, we arrived to Shah Alam at 8.30 a.m..my bro gave me some pocket money and he drove to work...hehehe..now, i'm 95% healthy again and i have a mission!..to accomplish what my bro n my family have told me before!..kuat semangat tia!!..kuat!!..

hye there bloggers..

another lazy monday 2 go through..i'm fasting today..no great things happened in the past 2 weeks..but yesterday i've got a bar of chocolate from my boy with love..thank u dear..yummy!!..

yesterday i went shopping with my sis..we bought some stuffs juz 2 pleasure ourselves..niceeee~~..then i went back 2 shah alam at 4.45 p.m. if i'm not mistaken..i listened 2 the cd that i had burned few days before while driving..layannn~~..

keep my focus right now for something that will jeopardize me in the future..keep moving..keep moving~~..stay focus..emm..right now, i really admire a song by MJ - u're not alone...it's kinda make me sway and drove me deeply into my thoughts..=)..love it dam much!..of course i'm not alone..my family n my friends are here with me..i should be grateful everyday to God for sending them 2 me..lots of love for them..

i'm glad to hear that mommy n ayah can have a good rest at home now..can't wait 2 go back home..yeah right, u homesicker!!!..haha..who cares anyway..they're my parents..without them, i dnt exist..

currently setting up my focus back now..no more hanging out till dawn!..(uarghhh!!..mampukah aku?..)..hahaha..actually i still can hang out as long as my works are done..kan?..kan?..hehehe..

hye dear bloggers..

today, i woke up at 5.30 a.m...i couldn't sleep..may be it was because i slept early last night..i've been thinking a lot lately..sometimes i feel sad and sometimes i feel happy..that's normal right?..

and guess what?..i'm a homesick girl right now..i never felt this way since i was at my uitm perak..i enjoyed my holiday with my parent for the last 2 weeks..i couldn't describe my feeling right now..i'm happy but at the same time i feel sad..i've juz talked on the phone with my mom..ayah is not home yet..he had 2 send my uncle 2 a hospital in Johor Bahru..it was such a relief 2 talk 2 my mom..i bet u guys felt the same way 2 right?..

my mom is the person i want 2 meet the most if i've been into trouble..some people might wanna hide from their mom but 2 me, my mom is the best!..she always know how 2 tackle my problems..she's a good adviser 2 even though sometimes i dnt really follow her advice..and so my ayah..he knew what 2 do everytime his 2 princes and 2 princesses were in trouble..ayah is also the best!..hehe..

there's nothing more important to me than 2 have such a beautiful, supportive and understanding family..i remembered how i used 2 spend my money to call my bf but now, when i think back again, i'd rather spend my money only 2 call my family n my closest friends..=)..the only people who never walked out on u are your FAMILY..other than that, they would just come and go like a wind..

therefore, i hope 2 start my new semester with my new determination..may God bless me, my family and all my good friends..aminnn..

hye bloggers..

it's weird when someone can change into someone else drastically, right?..i know i'm not perfect..neither everyone else out there..people tend 2 make mistakes n learn from their mistakes..it's a way of life..n sometimes we can be on top n sometimes we can be at the bottom..

i dnt like 2 see all my friends suffer..i hope all my friends will enjoy their lives happily..i dnt like 2 make anybody as my enemy even though some

of them might think that i'm trying 2 be one..i dnt like 2 beat about the bush..true friends are hard 2 find..but once u found them, never let them go..=)..

waaaahhh!!..terbaeekkk wokk!!..(tagline aril af7)..sometimes, i do feel annoy with certain people..but, i learned not to take it seriously these days..juz let it go n hope it would be better in times..if it's not today, may be it's tomorrow or may be it takes years 2 finally become better..so, what ever people say about u, juz pray that they can find their way without having 2 hurt each other..

2 me, everybody has their little 'black book'..forgiveness is important..=)..we dnt have 2 be shy 2 admit our mistakes or weaknesses..we're not God..i remember this nice quote..Confucius used 2 say, 'If u be patient in one moment of anger, u'll escape a hundred days of sorrows'..that's true..u dnt hve 2 rush..take ur time n follow the flow..think about the nicest thing that ever happened 2 u n juz put it as ur 'light'..

stop barging people that u hate but instead, pray 2 God 2 guide u through the hard times..to forgive somebody is the hardest thing 2 do..i know that..u need courage n most important is that u know what's best 4 u..the rest, u juz leave it 2 God....

salam bloggers..

these past few days really got my mood..=)..i'm going back 2 johore this wednesday insyaAllah..cant wait 2 see my mom n ayah..smalam g shah alam jap..g buang ikan kakak aku kat tasik depan umah aku..umah aku kat blok 58 seksyen 7 2 la..kakak aku da mls nk jage ikan da..huhu..

we went there at 7.00 p.m...a bit late i guess?..senja..kat tasik 2 gelap sgt..ade la 2,3 buah keta je yg park..xtau la diowg wat pe..hahaha..i manage 2 do my prayer at my house before i went back 2 PJ..n so my sis..singgah umah jap jpa housemate aku, sara..n then pick up some of my stuffs..most important, my medicine!!..

we didnt straightly go home after dat..sis brought me 2 secret recipe..dia nk blanje aku lg..yeaayy!!..after secret recipe, we went 2 a stall in front of her house..time 2 makan sate lak..mmg full la perut aku last nite..

emm..mlm td aku mimpi sumting yg lawak..bgn pg td aku tergelak ngan kakak aku..aku harap mimpi 2 jdi kenyataan..skang ni aku lg prefer dgr lagu2 motivation mcm yg aku letak kat page aku ni..semangat sikit kn?..haha..then, i watched movies that inspire me..cite cinta2 aku da jarang tgk da..i'm more 2 comedies n cartoons je right now..

i've got toothache from yesterday until last night..gigi bongsu aku nk tumbuh..adehhh..sakit siott!..nk tdo pown ssh..mcm nk nangis..haha..nangis sakit gigi xpe..jgn nangis sbb benda2 bodoh lg dah la..=)

hye bloggers..

emmm..yesterday i went 2 kelana jaya 2 have a nice dinner with hazrid (my oppa) n one of our QS junior from my practical office..remember anis that went 2 perak with me??..yeahh..i'm talking bout her..hehe..

kul 6 ptg aku gerak dr PJ sbb tnggu diowg 2 owg hbis keja..kitowg target nk lepak kat kelana jaya je..a treat from my oppa for getting a good result in my exam..thank u oppa!!..ye ke??..hehehe..never mind..i appreciate it oppa..it means a lot 2 me..

salam..

alhamdulillah n syukur are the only words i can say right now..Thank U Allah 4 giving me this opportunity 2 redeem myself..i went 2 bed at 10 p.m. last nite with this nervous feeling..wanna know y?..it's because i was worried about my exam result..

mommy told me it was gonna be OK..i prayed n i followed all her advice..remember i told u about 'mata yg x benti kenyit' 2?..mommy said dat may be i was about 2 cry 4 something..u're right mommy..it's not that i'm being superstitious but i am crying right now..i'm not crying 4 any jerks i've known..i cried because finally, i was capable of prooving 2 everybody that i can get good grades eventhough i had a lot of pressure during my exam..alhamdulillah again..

God knows how i survived during my last semester..i broke up during my study week which costs me loads of pressure..i had been in troubles 4 things i didnt even know y?..n there was event of 'talking behind my back'..2 the pretender out there, i have only two words 4 them...'BACK OFF!!'..NEway, i had 2 endure all those things..thank u 2 my supportive friends..n my most gratitude 2 my FAMILY...without them, i cannot stand up on my feet again..

fuhh!!..i'm happy at last..thank u Allah..Kau tarik sesuatu daripada aku dan Kau kurniakan aku sesuatu yang baru yang lebih bermakna dalam hidup aku..aku bersyukur dan redha dengan ketetentuanMU..these were the only words that came across my mind after i opened my exam result at 2.30 a.m. (12th June 2009)..

i almost shouted in front of my lappy..that woke my sis up..she asked me what had happened?..i smiled n said 2 her that i finally did it!!..she got out of bed n hugged me instantly..she called my mom n we woke up everybody in my family including my papa armal, my oppa n my navy friend..this is the happiest day of my life..tia is back..=)

now i believe that God has his own reason for letting these happened 2 me..(ade hikmah disebaliknyaa..)

hye readers!..

mowning..i cannot call it a day yet bcoz it's only 8.16 a.m..my plan 4 2day is 2 go 2 see my supervisor n farhana..mommy said she's gonna come here but dnt know when?..cant wait 2 see my mom..

dnt feel good 2day..i woke up at 7.00 a.m. this morning..praying to God 2 take all this 'pain' away from me..i've always wanted 2 be in a certainty position..right now i dnt feel anything..if anyone ask me questions bout their love life, i'm sorry 2 say that i dnt even have the answers..it's not that i've given up!..i only want a space 4 myself..i'm not rejecting anyone who really love me..but for now, silence is my best friends..i'm sorry..

i have a very long journey which i dnt even know what would happen afterwards..for now, i dnt want anything 2 stop me..my fwens asked me if i ever wanted 2 hve a new bf..huh!!..what for?..maybe this is not the right time..i juz dnt wanna let anybody down..n most important is that i dnt wanna be in that 'down' situation anymore..i've found my goal!..it's time 2 make it real!..SELFISH!..maybe someone will say this 2 me..hmm..who cares anyway?..i'm sick n tired of being the blamed person..

have u ever been accused 2 something that u never done??..i've been into that a lot of times..one day, they said this 'thing' 2 me..the other day, they said the other way round..i dnt like 2 judge people bcoz me myself, is not perfect..trust me..what goes around comes around..it's all about KARMA..

from now on, i'm gonna stop blaming myself 4 what had happened..2 know the truth is something that's really gonna hurt me..but it's an act of God..i may have done wrong b4 n therefore, God has given me this 'test'..

P.S : PLEASE BE NICE TO EVERYBODY...=)..n DNT EVER BACKSTAB PEOPLE AROUND U NO MATTER HOW BAD THEY ARE..

morning everyone!..

i woke up at 7 a.m. today..feeling more energetic than b4 but worried of sumting bad that might happen 2 me in these few weeks..never mind..juz let God do the rest..i did my laundry n turned on my lappy..sis was preparing 2 go 2 work..i was planning 2 go 2 the library today with my fwens..shower at 8.30 a.m. and bfast downstairs..

mata aku still berkenyit2 lg ni..hmmm..aku ni bkn la 'a believer' sgt tp sometimes old folks are true with their saying..mommy told me dat maybe i will cry 4 something..some of my fwens told me dat there were people talking behind my back..what ever it was, i was hoping dat there must be a good reason for this..

now, it's 8.57 a.m..i'm preparing 4 my journey 2 shah alam..hahaha..mcm jauh sgt je..it takes about 20mins 2 go there..tp kalo x jam, 15mins pown leh smpai..depends on the speed la..emm..mommy gave me celcom top up yesterday..tQ mommy..it's good 2 hang out with my mom..she always know how 2 comfort me..n ayah?..ayah always guides me 2 do what's best 4 me..luv u guys!..

hehe..tibe2 rase sayu hati lak..aku sgt nervous utk sem depan ni..mampukah aku capai ape yg aku nak?..insyaAllah..tinggal aku sowg je yg x hbis blaja lg..abg2 n kakak smua da keja..maybe diowg kawen thn depan..x sbr rasenye nk jdi MAK USU..almaklumlah kann..aku ni anak bongsu..

abg aku ajak keja kat SIME DARBY..apply jdi trainee dlu mcm dia..pastu compete utk jdi yg trbaik..abg aku berjaya dlm umur yg muda..bru grad da pegang gaji more than RM3,000.00..x yah la aku nk gtau specific sgt kn?..nti mcm menunjuk lak..tp aku sgt salute abg2 n akak aku ni..they know what they want n they strive hard 2 achieve it..aku ni lain lak..jap2 rajin..jap2 mls..hahaha..

alangkah seronok kalo aku jdi mcm mase aku kat UiTM Kuala Pilah dlu..SITI NUR AIMI SHAHBUDIN je yg tau aku mcm ne dlu..2 la 1st time aku btol2 berusaha utk diri aku..fokus aku x pnah hilang..tp bile masuk Perak, mcm2 jdi..aku hilang fokus..kat Shah Alam pown aku hilang fokus..hmmmm...

slh aku gak..slalu terima owg x tentu psl..last2 study ntah ke mana..aku ni mudah maafkn owg n cepat kesiankn owg..owg wat mcm2 pown aku leh rilek je lyn owg 2..ntah bile aku nk jdi keras hti aku pown x tau..aku x sbr nk grad..nk tukar environment..x sbr nk senangkn parents aku..kawen??..ade gak membe2 aku yg ngah plan nk kawen skang tp aku x kot...aku da tukar misi aku..hehehe..cari pe yg aku nk dlu..senangkn family dlu pastu senangkn aku n then bru senangkn owg len..

kalo dlu, aku akn senangkn owg len dlu bru senangkn diri aku..smpai ibu aku mrh2 aku..ibu ckp aku pentingkn kawan..mmg btol pown..kwn mkn aku pown aku leh maafkn mcm 2 je..agak bodoh gak la kn??..tp nk wat mcm ne?..aku x suka simpan lame2..aku ingat kata2 sowg kakak ni..(KAK AKMA)..dia ckp..JANJI ALLAH ITU PASTI!..so, aku menantikn janji ALLAH je la..sbb janji manusia x pnah ditepati..aku pown kdg2 lupa janji gak..so, 2 all people out there..dnt make a promise if u know u'll break the promise..

k lah..aku nk siap..fokus da ok sket..planning kna betol..insyaAllah...